I hate dieting!!

OK I know it is not dieting, it is a lifestyle, but I wish that I could just eat and not have to worry about anything like so many of my friends.

I have PCO…which is a condition with my ovaries that is partly caused by excess weight.  The strongest chance I have of getting rid of this condition is to lose weight.  Trouble is, it is harder to lose weight because of the hormonal imbalances (at least that’s what the gyne told me).  I’m not supposed to get discouraged when I work really hard and see very small results. 

Well my brain knows that I should not get discouraged, but I still do.  Over the past few weeks I have been working hard at my weight watchers counting (aside from the one day at the ex, but even that was not that bad), and what have I to show for it?  I was up 2lbs last week and lost only .8 this week.  It makes me want to quit when I work so hard and don’t see the results. 

Sometimes they try to tell you that it should not be that hard but it is for me.  If it was easy I could eat everything I wanted, but I can’t do that without ballooning in weight, so I have to make sacrifices.  I’m willing to do that for the good of my health.  (Having PCO, I’m prone to get diabetes, and am already pre-diabetic).  I just wish that I could see the pay off now because this is too frustrating.

Rolling Rolling Rolling

Tomorrow I have to meet the Candidates Secretary…which makes me really nervous.

1. She is a stranger…what do you talk about with someone you don’t know?

2. She has a say in whether or not I get into CFOT

What if I go there and act like myself, and she does not like me?

What if I go there and act like someone else and she can tell I am being fake?

What if she asks me hard questions?

What if she is not nice to me? 

I am so nervous it is not funny.  I just feel like the entire thing is going to be her sizing me up…which it might not even be. 

In other news I counted every last ounce of food that went in my mouth last week and I only lost 1.6lbs.  Yeah 1.6 is good, but I had just hoped for at least 2 after making all those good food choices.  I have not let that discourage me though, I am keeping up with it, and writing every last ounce that goes in my mouth this week.  Hopefully it will pay off more.

 

Well it is time for a diet update I guess

I weighed in 2lbs less at weight watchers this week.  Which is good, but considering it had been 3 weeks since my last weigh in not so good either.

Still I press on, I am at the doctor on July 8th and hope to at least be a bit down from what I was when I saw him last.

I bought my tent this weekend and I put it up tonight to see how to do it.  Pretty good, I am really looking forward to my camping trip this summer now.

So my officer told me last night that she was going to start pressing things on to get my full case papers going for CFOT, so today they emailed me and got some more information from me.  So hopefully that will start moving a little quicker.

I do have to take a course, but I’d kinda like to wait until later to take it to get a feel for whether or not I will get accepted because the course is $900 and you only get reimbursed if you get accepted.  $900 is a lot of money.

Other than that nothing much is new.  I am all moved in to my parents house now, getting ready to save all the money that is required.  So things are rolling, I just hope that they roll the right way.

Well it has finally happened

I turned 30 years old today. 

I was dreading this day for the longest time.  I have been depressed about this day.

Friends told me that it was no big deal at all, and I did not believe them. 

Well today when I woke up, I believed them…I did not feel any different than yesterday.  I am fine.

Then I hopped onto my bike for my 14.7KM ride to work and not only am I ok with being 30, but I am going to embrace it.  My 30s are going to be my greatest years.  I have a lot to accomplish, and unlike all the things i wanted to accomplish by the time I was 30, I am actually on the road to doing now, and if I had done them sooner it would have not been right I think.

I am getting into shape in an effort to take better care of my health.  I am watching what I eat, not only to lessen fat intake, but to try and get the proper nutrients into my body.  I am exercising, who knows…maybe that goal of running the marathon will come true in my 30s.

I am getting ready to go into CFOT.  This has been a lifelong dream and it will happen in my 30’s.

Things are going to be good, 30 really is the new 20.

Also a shout out goes to my Grandma Erva Deacon, who would have been 84 today…I love you and will always miss you, especially on our day!

OH MY ACHING LEGS

ok so today I actually did some exercise.  I biked to and from work.  I work approximately 14.7KM which is around 9 Miles from my place.  so pretty much 30KM today. 

Getting to work was not a problem, it took me about an hour, which is not bad for my first time out in a while.   There was a train on the way, which I found kinda funny because on the path at the train crossing there were 4 other bikers, they’re all decked out in their biker gear like spandex and everything…and they are on road bikes and all in shape looking…then there is me, bent over like I am dying, in my sweats, not looking athletic at all…I found it strangely funny.

Coming home was not so fun, as the wind was against me.  took me about an hour and a half to get home.  I thought I might die.  My mom was worried that something happened because I was not home right away….but it was the wind I tell you.

All I can say is that if I don’t lose weight this week I will be very sad, that is if I am able to move enough to get on the scale.

I do have to admit though that I am quite impressed with myself, doing that far of a distance, I’m pretty much Da Bomb!!!

Diet update

Well I only lost 1.2 pounds this week.  Which sucks, I mean of course it is good because it is a loss, but I was hoping for more.  Although I don’t know why I am surprised…I did not over do it but I also did not count everything…so with the pound I gained last week I am still at my original loss. 

Oh well I am going to make sure that everything is written down for tomorrow.

I’ve decided to go on a multi-vitamin, I am concerned about keeping up my vitamins being on the vegetarian diet.  I am especially concerned about my iron and B12 because I do not eat a lot of animal products….or foods rich in any vitamins.  So until I get to the doctor in July I will take vitamins and then I will talk to the doctor. 

So that is it for a now. 

A loss and some thoughts

Well my first week back at weight watchers was pretty darn good.  I lost 5.2lbs.  That makes me happy when the hard work I have done over the week pays off.  Apparently exercise really does help.

I also ordered my new glasses today, they are a very weak prescription, but I am hoping that they help with my headaches.   My eyes are 2 different strengths.  I never knew though that now, the lenses are more expensive than the frames.  I am not covered for eyeglasses either, so today’s purchase took quite a big bite out of my bank account.  Oh well what can you do.

A Nice Relaxing Saturday

I better not say that I am relaxing too loudly, some people might try to fill up the hours I have to myself with things to do.

I am not actually completely relaxing either, I am packing, getting ready to move back home in about a month.  I am playing rock band too.  I really love that game.

As far as the diet is concerned, I’m not doing too badly.  Thursday and Friday were tougher for me, I could not stop eating for some reason, but I did count everything, so I should still see a loss this week.  I’ll be really mad if I don’t. 

Other than that there is not a whole lot new in my life.  Well I better get back to packing.

I need to stick with it

This blog might be about dieting over the next while.  I find that I need to become obsessed with it in order to stick to it.  So for the next few days at least it will be my obsession. 

Today went pretty good, I had some dried fruit for breakfast about 2 points worth, and for lunch I had some 3 point soup.  For supper I cooked some pasta, about a cup and had some vegetarian sauce and added extra veggies to fill me up.  It was good.

I have my breakfast ready to go for tomorrow, and for lunch I will have the second half of today’s soup, then it is off to mom and dad’s for supper. 

I also got a bit of exercise today.  I insulted the favorite wrestler of one of the individuals that I support, so I got chased around the shop quite a bit.  I also jogged part of the way to the church tonight for my practice, which although it was not much..it was a start.

So one day down…gone pretty good I hope it continues.

Today I used 3 flex points.  Not too bad considering my normal appetite.

And I sigh again.

Well the diet is not working at all for me these days, so I have decided to go back to Weight Watchers.  Yeah for like the 5th time.  It’s crazy, I just can’t seem to get motivated and stay motivated.

I’m telling you this though….this is the last time I will be going to Weight Watchers.  If I can not stick it this time around I won’t.