Now that is frustrating

I had my mom drop me off at sev tonight so I could go in and by bus tickets.  Apparently they are sold out.  Sold out of bus tickets?   Now I gotta use cash for the bus to work tomorrow and that’s more expensive.  It so annoying. 

 I am thinking about going over to superstore to get some flavored cream to make hot chocolate with, but I don’t know I am pretty tired and it is 8PM.  Maybe I should just go to bed.

Tired

Well it has been 2 good days of watching Band of Brothers with my dad and sister. We have one episode left, which we will watch tomorrow.

We did our laundry here….well Linda did it. Hey I did not ask her to do mine too…she just did. Now I have clean clothes for free. That is always a good thing.

We also had chinese food for supper. I love chinese food, but it was not as good this time around. Mostly everything tasted like fish, I guess they cooked fish in the same pots and oil or whatever that they cooked our food in. I hate fish. It was not horrible though.

I went home for a little bit to clean my apartment…but got on the computer instead so I’ll have to go back and do some more tomorrow.

2 weeks ago I called my cable/internet/phone provider and cut everthing down. I went from digital to basic cable, high speed to high speed light, and went down from regular phone to phone light. The only difference with the phone is that there is no voice mail included (I pay 5 bucks extra for it I think but that is better than 20). There is also no more free long distance, which is not a loss for me since I have never made a long distance call yet. I had originally gotten this phone service with the intent of phoning all my out of Winnipeg friends…but then I remembered I hate talking on the phone.

The whole point of that little story is that since my TV went down to basic….I hardly watch it at all…really I turn it on for background noise while I am on the computer. So I am thinking of getting it cut off all together. Who knows though…I don’t know if I could handle not having ANY when I want it.

Well I am really thirsty so I think I will get a drink and go to bed. I am tired too.

I’m a little bit emotional today

I’m sure many people will make fun of me for this post but who cares. Anyone who knows me knows I like ALOT of different kinds of music. Everything from Opera to Ska.

Well I also happen to like some of Sandi Patti’s songs. More so the calmer ones. I’ve had the tune to this song in my head all day today. I think I was reminded of it today because I was thinking about God’s grace and how blessed I am by his grace. I was thinking though also of how I am very often not a channel of his grace, and that’s something I really need to change.

This song was also reminding me of a time, not so long ago when I was very very angry. Angry, hostile and blaming it on everyone else. God started showing me my own fault, and even though I didn’t want to see it and was straying farther and farther from him in my heart I would be sitting on the bus on the way to or from work and I would listen to this song over and over again because the tune caught me. I know it sounds really hokey, but in a sense this song playing in my head seemed to be praying for me when I could not pray myself. I really feel that God has accomplished what the song says…he’s given me his joy even in tougher days. The joy of the Lord IS my strength.

Here are the words to that song

Cleanse me Lord of all my silly sad charades
How I want to be all and only Yours
Take away the clutter in my life everyday
And me like a child at play

Give me joy,
I love to laugh and cry with You
You’ve become a friend with me all the time
Help me to be patient as I watch and as I pray
Growing in your love each day,
Lord show me the way

When the time comes, I want Him to know me
When the comes I want to be there
And when the time comes, I want to be ready
When Jesus comes to take me, take me home

Fill Me Lord, I want your love to overflow
Running free through me to a lonely world
Let me share that simple truth that sets people free
How I want them all to see how it can be

GRRRRRR

Why is it that people can not admit their own fault? Yeah yeah yeah I know I do it to…go ahead and quote the proverb about the fingers pointing…I just wanna vent and this is my blog so I can. I’ll repeat that yes I know that I am “one to talk”…but I am frustrated.

It just seems to me that when you wrong someone or make a mistake even that the response should just be “Hey I screwed up and I am sorry” rather than coming up with lame excuses, and lies. As if the other person is even going to buy it.

I guess it is like Adam and Eve….rather than facing the music they tried to hide, so as to not expose their own sin. We still try to do the same thing even though it usually backfires.

I guess too that in order for people to feel that they can come and say those words “Hey I screwed up and I am sorry”, they really need to feel grace admist the consequences.

So God forgive me for the times I don’t admit my fault…help me be strong to realize and admit. Forgive me also for the times I do not live in a spirit of grace toward those who have wronged me.

Is the weekend here yet?

Oops I hit enter 2 times and published this entry before I even typed anything.

I am looking forward to the weekend. My mom is going shopping in the states and my sister and I are going to stay with our dad while she is away. Normally this would not be so exciting except we have been planning (since Christmas I might add) to have a Band of Brothers Marathon. Both my sister and I love the series and my mom got it for my dad for Christmas, he has been waiting for my sister and I to be available so we could all watch it together. He wouldn’t even let me watch it alone when I was home from my surgery.

We are going to eat bad food too, so that makes me excited.

The downside to this is that I got a note under my door today saying that the caretakers will be coming in my apartment next week to do bathroom vent cleaning, which sucks because I really need to clean my place up. Now I am under deadline to do it. I guess I will have to come home at some point on Saturday to do it. I cleaned the kitchen tonight, which was not too bad…now I need to clean the clutter and mess in the living room.

I guess I should head to bed but I don’t wanna

It has been such a fast weekend I do not want it to end yet.

Friday night I had my work employee appreciation banquet to attend. I usually try to Smooze with the families of our employees, but I was too tired so I basically sat at my table the whole night except when I was taking pictures. I did not get home from that until like 11PM so I was super tired.

Saturday I slept in and woke up around noon (I did not go to bed as soon as I got home)…but I could barely move. I had absolutly no energy. I got out of bed because it was noon, but I soon had to go back to bed because I could not stay awake at all, and trust me I tried. I woke up again in time to be a bit late to meet my sister for our saturday night dinner.

When I got home from that Janet called to see if I wanted to go to hockey, so I did. Got in after midnight and then got up for church today.

After that I slept all afternoon at my parents house. Then came home, mustered up the energy to go to the store for some bus tickets. Have been trying to stay awake a bit, but finally am ready to head to bed.

Tomorrow is another busy day, with work, a meeting at church and floor hockey.

So sore

OK I went to floor hockey tonight for the first time. I was kinda nervous because it is all boys.

I did pretty good though because I had like 3 or 4 assists and a goal. I SCORED A GOAL.

It was fun, but I don’t know how I am gonna be able to move in the morning I can already feel my muscles paining up.

BUT IT WAS FUN!!!

Thanks Guys

I don’t know

I have to do the devotional at the Seniors residence tomorrow afternoon. It’s like a 5 minute thing, but I am so nervous it’s not even funny. I am such a dork…but even so here is a copy of what I am going to say (basically, I need to tweek it a little, I am going to mention Ecclesiastes at the beginning.)

Hi my name is Jackie, and it is a great privilege for me to be sharing with you this way today.

Well it seems that season change is upon us again. We are getting ready here in Winnipeg to transition from our short autumn period into getting ready for winter. I have not pulled out my winter coat yet, but I know that the time is soon coming where I am going to have in order to keep warm through the cold winter months.

As I was thinking about season change and preparing for winter I was reminded of the similarities between season changes and the different seasons of life.

We like to think that spring can be compared to when we are very young because everything in spring is new. Things are blooming and there are signs of new life all over the place.

Summer when everything is in full bloom can be compared to when we are young adults entering into middle age. This is the time when many say that we are in our prime and there are many events that occur in the summer of our lives. Like storms and sweet smells.

The fall season compares to our later adulthood and retirement age. We can reflect on the things that we have accomplished in life. We begin to see the harvest of seeds that we have sown earlier on in our seasons of life.

Finally we get to winter, when we are in our later years. Winter can be a tough season to bear. It can seem bleak and cold and dark a time when many become weary. Do you sometimes feel like this?

I think though, that winter is the most misunderstood season of them all. I’m sure that sometimes you must feel misunderstood as well. Yes winter can seem bleak and cold and dark, but it can also be a time of great beauty and goodness.

Only in winter can we catch a snowflake on the tip of our tongues. See pine trees that are capped in glowing white snow. In winter it is nice to relax and sit in front of a fire, or drink hot chocolate. These activities are not as good to do in any other season but winter.

Even though many often dread the arrival of the winter season of life, we can rejoice and be thankful in the fact that there are many blessings in winter time. I trust that as you go throughout your week and continue in your regular routines that you will remember this fact. We can also be reminded that in our winter time, God is still present, just as he was in our spring, summer and fall times. The seasons of life might creep up on us and change us, but God always remains the same and he is always speaking life and hope into each season.

Let me just leave you with some scripture that will help remind you of this fact and it is found in Psalm 100 verses 4 and 5 (read aloud from Bible)

grrr

My stupid phone is broken. My sister gave me a new one.

I am doing really bad on my diet..I can not stop eating.

I bought firey habenero chips…I don’t know why.

I am tired but I can not sleep.

I need to finish my slurpee

What time is it ? 10:26

What’s your full name ?Jaclyn Joy Wynne

What are you most afraid of ? failing

What is the most recent movie that you have seen in a Theater ?uhhhh hairspray?

Place of birth? Winnipeg Manitoba

Favorite Food? I love curry Chicken, sadly I can not eat it too much because it hurts me

What’s your natural hair color? Brown

Ever been to Alaska ? Nope

Ever been toilet paper rolling -?what the heck is toilet paper rolling?

Love someone so much it made you cry? Romantically no…but loved someone that much yes

Been in a car accident? Yes I totalled the car in 2002

Croutons or bacon bits? Bacon Bits

Favorite day of the week Saturday

Favorite restaurant. Anywhere with great steak and mushrooms

Favorite Flower? uhhh hibiscus

Favorite sport to watch? Hockey

Favorite drink? Coffee these days.

Favorite ice cream? Chocolate

Disney or Warner Brothers? Don’t matter to me

Ever been on a ship ?no

What color is your bedroom carpet? brownish

How many times did you fail your driver’s test? once

Before this one, from whom did you get your last e-mail? My CO

What do you do when you are bored ? Play on facebook

Bedtime? Whenever I get tired…sometimes it is 8PM sometimes it is 2AM

Who will respond to this e-mail the quickest ? No one

Who is the person you sent this to that least likely to respond ? I’m not sending it to anyone

Who is the person that you are most curious to see their responses? Don’t matter

Favorite TV show? I never watch TV anymore

Last person you went to dinner with? Linda and Mom

Favorite time of year? fall…not too hot not too cold

What are your favorite colors ? Red

How many tattoos do you have ? 1 but I am looking to get more.

How many pets do you have ? 1 dog

Which came first, the chicken or the egg? I don’t really care

36. What do you want to do before you die? Become an officer

Have you ever been to Hawaii ?nope

Have you been to countries outside Canada? Just to the USA

How many people are you sending this e-mail to ? None

Time this survey ended 10:35